Tired

It's amazing that thoughts one has when they are at the brink of collapsing in the state of exhaustion, which is where it seems I sut all to many times. My thoughts aren't always as coherent bit really that's about all they gt out of me at work. The sta date 9 to 5 bull ahit drives me up the wall then on top of the tine I spend drivinand eating the majority of my time is spren bei g more aof a waste than what feel as bei g productive. I guess that's is where I lie, but what would I dk if I had an j finite amu t of time or energy to do all the things I thought I wanted. It seems like yesterday I could just sit and lose myself in a computer game or a book or a movie and completely Immerse my self into the atory and lose my sense of reality for while but now reality is always looming behind me in this dull greed ridden world. At least while I as at school I could manage my time better and look into things that seemed to have more of an interest in. Now it seems I can't even dot an eye without havig to have another person look Ilover it.

Perspective

I’m going to go on a rant here so bear with me (warning my brain is dead).

Over my last adventure to my grandparents, I get the pleasure of sharing my four day vacation with my  family.  Now if you don’t know me :P, I had a small attachment to a cartoon show over my high school years.  My mom brings this up, non-chalantly and to get a shortcut to the point, she played it off as me being a emo child that had nothing better than a stupid tv show.  So the family spent 15 minutes giving me shit over me yelling over this show.  What was this show to me?

Alright so I move from a school, where I feel comfortable and have a good group of friends to a school in the middle of no where in MIssouri.  I’m already self conscious about my weight (180 at about 5’ 3”), but I have engrained in my head that people don’t like me because of my weight.  I don’t go out of my way to talk to anyone, even with the people I know (because I don’t want to get in the way or be a hamper), much less with people that I don’t.  Ever get that weird feeling that people wonder what you are doing when you walk up and start a random conversation? well its always like that.  What is my escape?

This t.v. show that I went emo over, was the one thing that kept me happy.   I was so attached to the characters in the story and the story itself that I didn’t really care about not talking to many people, but at least I could get my thrills through this story.

This sets up my rant on perspective.  The older generation loses their sight of the future with their attachment to the ideas of the past.  At a certain point our parents were once the pioneers of the future, so the new generation has to take over. Not everyone gets blinded to their experience, but in the case of my family they get blinded by their experience and forget to apply it to the new.  Sometimes the thinkers are shoved down vs. the appliers of our knowledge.

I think this is probably the fundamental part of our problem in our society.  We are blinded by our own perspectives to see the other side.  Science for religion, Christianity vs. Islam.   Young vs. old.

We are penalized by this inability of the human race, and really as a whole we are held back by this fact.  I think if you are too dumb to be able to cast yourself into someone else’s shoes, you should be cast out of the pool (you can take this as you will).  Thinkers should prevail for our society vs. the mechanical appliers of what we’ve learned. 

P.S. politicians are dumb and most of the government is really too dumb to make it operate right, but that’s for another day.

The Legacy

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I fit in more to the latter of the  two.  Yet my reception will never quite hit the level of THE BEAST.  So Exciting its like

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Long time since I posted

Its been a heck of a long time since I posted on here.  I went back and re read all my previous posts.  I still get in this conundrum, but I've got more intellectual evidence to support some of my claims. 

I like the idea of nihlism, but not necissarily as a rule to live by.  A nihlist belives that values are falsely invented.  To clarify, a nihlist believes that we ourselves place values onto our conceptions.  This view brings about many ideas on what would be considered to be attributed to a meaningful life.  One of which, and one that I consider the most important is morality.

A nihilistic moralist would view the world as many people would commonly view as being immoral.  The nihlistic moralistic would take everything for themselves and refuse to think that anything is immoral on the grounds that morality is something that we have defined.  You can not be immoral on the grounds that there is no real morality.

I don't look at morallity as something that is really defined, but more of a feeling and a compromise between people.  I used this example in a paper that I wrote for a class, but lets say you are travelling down the highway and some old cotton top lady cuts you off.  A morallist would likely react in at worst just yelling profannities through the confines of their car.  This doesn't cause any harm to anyone, adn even improves the situation because you are able to vent your anger.   Another way to react is to go ahead and ram the lady to run her off the road causing her to die in the ditch.  This is hugely gratifying and this cotton top fugly biatch deserved to die.  There is something about this that seems wrong.  This feeling closely lies with our moral standards or our conceptions of what is moral.  Lets take morality as an abstraction.

What morality seems to be is a definition of common ground between people.  If there were no trusts at all between people then we would constantly have to live with our backs against the wall.  A cornered tiger is forced to destroy while a cornered mouse is doomed for destruction.   Humans can take place of the mouse and the lion both at the same time or disjointly.  Now if each person is equal then they deserve the same rights to life and opportunity for existance.  In the scenario before this seems to be violated because by killing the old lady we are taking away her potential to living.  

How far should morality stretch.  Should it only be limited to the confines of our body or to exentions outwardly.  Should that T.V. be considered to be mine or is it really have any belonging to me.  It seems that if you put in the effort to work towards owning a place to put it, enough food to sustain your self, and something to watch on it, it should be something that I can guarantee to entertain myself with as I please.  So along with the metaphysical obligation to a valuable life we also have extensions of our thought to the physical world onto things that we work and invest our time for.  It seems more beneficial to be able to not see the purchase of a tv as a risk of having to get stolen.  Nowadays its all but dissappeared.